Hey. I'm over it. Whatever. No one is going to be happy with this all the time. That's life. More to follow. Haha.
Someday Soon Chapter 54
Maya had spent a few days avoiding everyone. Ok so she was exactly avoiding them, but for once she was grateful for their absence. Riley had fled to Philadelphia for the week in hopes of avoiding any chance contact with Lucas. Shawn had been working longer hours for the past few weeks, always apologizing profusely to Maya and promising to make it up to her.
She told him she didn't mind. She could keep herself busy around the apartment with Hudson to keep her company. Riley had wanted her to come to Philadelphia with her but Maya had quickly made up an excuse about appointments in the city that she couldn't miss. She couldn't stand the idea of being held up with Riley all day everyday for a week, having to stare into her best friend's face and keep a secret that she didn't know how to tell. There was a very select number of things that Maya had never confided in her best friend in. Most of those things were secrets that she kept even from herself.
Maya tried to find some comfort in the thought that maybe there wasn't really anything to tell. So she had kissed Josh. She'd done that before and hadn't felt the need to spill her guts to Riley. So they had gone to the movies. They did that all the time. Nothing new there. But this was different. This didn't feel like just going to movies as a couple of friends. This felt like it was leading somewhere. To something. This wasn't the kind of thing she should be keeping for Riles. But she couldn't get the idea of Riley, curled up on her bed dried tears streaking her face holding onto the fact that at least both she and Maya were single and could spend their whole summer being lazy and lonely together. How could Maya just take that away from her?
Maybe she could hold off. Not pursue anything with Josh until September when Riley had moved to Pennsylvania, gotten settled, started to move on. That would be the kind thing to do. But could she be that deceitful? More importantly, could she really stay away from Josh for that long? Logically she could. They had gone years just being friends, waiting a few more months shouldn't be that hard. But in her heart Maya knew she couldn't do it. Not now that she really knew what it was like to have him hold her hand, and to kiss her. It was hard enough staying away from him now.
Maya hadn't seen Josh in the few days since they had gone to the movies and she had come home to find Riley camped out in her bed. Josh had called her the following day but she had let her phone go to voicemail, and had only answered his texts with vague sentiments about being busy and calling him back in a few days or something along those lines. She wasn't sure what to do, and she wasn't sure she wanted to face him until she had it all sorted out.
It was going on five days of wandering around her apartment with Hudson on her heels trying to figure out what to do. When Riley called, she let her babble on mindlessly, half listening, her wind still wandering wildly. It felt kind of weird not talking to Josh every day. He hadn't texted her in the last few days and in the back of her head she was starting to get worried. Was he just giving her space? Did he think she was blowing him off? Had he gotten bored? Decided she wasn't worth it? Now Maya's mind of churning these possibilities together and driving herself even more crazy than before. Rather than letting it continue to chew away at her she grabbed her bag and her keys from the hook by the door and set out from her apartment onto the streets.
It was early saturday morning, only around 9 am. The sun wasn't high in the sky yet so the air was comfortably cool, although by mid afternoon the sun would be beating down on the pavement making being outside a miserable affair. Maya walked down the sidewalk at a quick pace, keeping in steps with the hoards on the streets around her hurried on their way. She took the subway over towards the east village and after some time turned onto Avenue A.
Maya wandered up the street towards Josh's apartment building, ducking into a deli and picking up bagels and cheap coffee, not wanting to show up to Josh's apartment unannounced and empty handed.
She ducked under the awning of Josh's building and was about to press the button to buzz up to his apartment when the door opened in front of her, causing her to step back to avoid getting hit in the face with the heavy metal frame. The tenant to came out of the building muttered an apology to Maya and pushed the door further open so she could entre while he exited. So much for security, Maya thought to herself as she hurried through the door of the building and towards the staircase towards the back of the lobby.
It was an older building and a walk up, so by the time she reached Josh's door on the fourth floor she was slightly ashamed to be out of breath. She had the paper bag containing the bagels pinned under her left arm and was holding the two coffees. Josh's apartment didn't have a doorbell but rather a brass door knocker. Maya didn't have a free hand so rather than placing the coffee on the floor beside the door frame, she reached out with her foot and have the door a few swift kicks with the flat of her foot, hoping the wrapping was loud enough for Josh to hear it. It was before 10 am and a saturday, there was a chance that she would be catching him still in bed.
She waited for a minute, listening for any movement behind the door. After a moment she heard shuffling approaching the door. For a second Maya panicked. What was she doing here? Showing up with zero notice. What if he didn't want to see her? God she hadn't even buzzed the door. But before she could put any more thought into it the door cracked open in front of her. The chain lock pulled taunt as Josh peaked through the crack to see who is unexpected visitor was.
Maya could only see a fraction of his face through the crack on the door but she saw his expression shift between hesitation and confusing to shock and what she thought might even be excitement.
The door closed for a split second and Maya heard the jangle of the lock and chain coming loose from the door before it was flung open again.
Josh had clearly rolled out of bed recently if not moments ago. His hair was disheveled and his eyes slightly squinting as if they hadn't yet adjusted to the morning light.
"Hey." Maya began.
" I was just.." she was about to say 'in the area' but what excuse would she have to be in the east village this early on a saturday. She let out a sigh and started again.
" I just wanted to see you." She admitted. Josh smiled at her, and opened the door wider so she could come in.
" and grab these bagels i'm about to drop them." Maya added, settling into her regular self. She felt all the tension release from her shoulders now that she felt more confidant that Josh was happy to see her.
She placed the coffee on his kitchen counter and when she turned around Josh was standing right in front of her, smiling down at her in a way that drove her crazy. Maya couldn't help herself. She pressed up on her tippy toes and placed her hands on his shoulder, reaching up to kiss him.
She couldn't believe that this was something that she in theory could do now. Maya felt Josh's arms slip around her waist.
" So you do still like me." Josh's said against her lips, pulling her closer against his chest.
Maya leaned back so that she could look at his face. She narrowed her eyes at him.
"What are you talking about." She asked playfully, interlocking her fingers behind his neck.
"Well you basically ghosted me after our date last week."
Maya tried to stifle a laugh and resist the urge to roll her eyes.
"It wasn't intentional." Maya defended. " but we do sort of have a problem." Maya admitted. Josh narrowed his eyes at her
"What's that?" He asked.
"Grab the bagels. It's a long story."