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Natalya's Journal 12

I don't own Hetalia okay? I know I skipped a bit of time on this section but it's building to the big drama coming up. Anyway, enough of this A/N, on with the fic!

May 20th 1917

(from the diary of Natalya Jones nee Arlovskaya)

Well, today has been something. I don't know what exactly. I do know that come June, that Fredka will have to go into Canada for a few weeks to bring Matthew back here. The man survived, but not in one piece apparently from the letter we had gotten today. He's alive at least. I have to look after Nikolai and I do not feel like traveling over 400 miles on a train ride that will take a few days with a young son and a harsh pregnancy. I swear I did not have this much trouble with Nikolai. It's almost as if I am twice as exhausted, twice as hungry, twice as everything that comes with it. Vanya says it is because last time I was not raising a young son at the time but I don't think that is it. Katyusha said maybe I am having twins. I don't know how that would be. She did offer to allow me to stay at big brother's house then. She will be the caretaker of it while he is gone.

It was heartbreaking to explain to Nikolai what was going on. I mean how do you tell a two year old about war? I think Vanya did a good job of saying he was going to help sick and hurt people by taking them to the doctor. He seemed to understand that, even though that boy does not like having to see a doctor himself. With that I told Vanya that he had better come back home because Nikolai loves him too much. He gets so excited when him and Fredka take him to the beach to play. He was disappointed when he couldn't when the winter had set in because it was too cold. There was a fair amount of snow this year, so Fredka taught the boy how to make snowballs and throw them about. I know that man has quite an arm and I was worried he'd throw them too hard but he takes great care of Nikolai. When Fredka and Vanya get into throwing snowballs or even sand balls, at each other, one or both of them come back with bruises. Nikolai does get his fair share of play with them in, but they make sure to never hurt him and let him think they had been bested by the child.

Well hopefully Matthew isn't so hurt that he can't do something similar with Nikolai. That boy needs someone to play with.

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