You cannot lie to him, but that doesn't stop you from trying. It's a reflex, at this point, to tell people you're fine. You are not fine. You have not been fine for a very long time. Most people believe you. Most people have only seen Klavier Gavin, the rock star you have not been in a very long time. Apollo sees you. He sees through every single one of your lies, no matter how small.

He will come back. He promised he would come back. He always keeps his promises. He is impulsive and unpredictable and self destructive and beautiful, and he always keeps his promises as long as he is still alive. He is still alive. You ask your sister how he’s doing sometimes. You do not ask her to bring him back to you, even though you know she could. He promised to come back.